Ready or not…
I happened to hear a radio show the other day where they were talking about vulnerability. This rather sharp psychologist in the most straightforward way suggested that “putting yourself out there without being able to control the outcome” is the essence of vulnerability. That idea resonates with me tonight.
Four years ago I stood before 600 or so friends and family during my son’s memorial celebration and shared some thoughts about my boy. At one point I talked about the love of music that he and I shared. I framed it as a lesson he’d taught me–that music is a kind of universal language that can connect people, and create and color every human emotion–including grief.
In the weeks and months following his death I found myself drawn to that lesson as I began (albeit quite reluctantly) practicing my love of music again–picking up the various instruments situated around the house and noodling. Soon I found some utility in that: writing words/ideas/music was becoming like a journal of sorts–marking time, documenting the process. The awful and anguished process told through songs.
A little bit later I got the idea that these songs kinda stitched a story, and that maybe it might make sense to figure out a way to share that story. On a whim I approached this incredible guitarist and producer, Ryan Neitznick, in a parking lot one night and asked if he might be interested in joining a conspiracy to help tell that story. He agreed (because he’s got a heart of gold), and soon brought a third conspirator and co-producer, John Michael Rectenwald, into the mix.
Together, they brought their shared genius, intense care and concern, and, ultimately, three dimensions to the vision I had originally developed. They spent countless hours working to appreciate the themes, reference materials, and tone I was hoping to convey. They leaned in so selflessly. No words would or could adequately capture my gratitude for their unconditional approach to the project. Honestly.
Special thanks to these immensely talented contributors:
Devin Mascilli (percussions), Ryan Neiznick (guitars, vocals), Jason Rafalak (bass), Nick Spagnolo (percussions), John Michael Rectenwald (vocals), Noah Rectenwald (bassoon, vocals)
And, so, here it is. I share it filled with vulnerability. Nine tracks. It’s called “all these stars over me.”
Or, if all else fails, you can listen to each track for free on this site here.
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